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Alice Hattrick
Alice Hattrick is a writer and producer based in London. Their book on unexplained illness, intimacy and mother-daughter relationships, titled Ill Feelings, will be published by Fitzcarraldo Editions in 2021.


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Ill Feelings

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Issue No. 19

Alice Hattrick

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Issue No. 19

My mother recently found some loose diary pages I wrote in my first year of boarding school, aged eleven, whilst she was clearing out...

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February 2016

'Look at me, I said to the glass in a whisper, a breath.'

Alice Hattrick

Art

February 2016

Listen to her. She is telling you about her adolescence. She is telling you about one particular ‘bender’ that...

Breath-Manifester   Each bared morning is a swell time to die, Leaving the town’s ornate maze for the level Expanse of those lit and meat-eating fields, the Clouds that turn like ghost machines, the antic Tremendous woods where Pan’s breath on your heart Recharms a flame from its grey-furred ember I’ll wear my belt blazoned with Alpha Centauri, For luck, whilst you’ll surely sport that Oxfam scarf In whose puce stitch some crone has worked GI   E (Glory To The Most High) Time to die, to be Disturbed by the one re-re-repeated Word Fanfared by each time-warping bird, each fierce leaf Or pimped bud that is but love’s newest halloo Over the heads of the dead and alive, alive-O Laughing, you’ll lurch and say or missay, “only kenning what’s real Saves us from terror Wilhelm Reich” Wise words     Drones   You see the Greys, he said, girding his teeth for a lime doughnut, they use the owl’s nervous system the way we use a drone or hidden camera Given what I now knew, it almost seemed possible When green tea was announced I slid outside for a smoke,   paced roided grass, watched where stained smokestacks smoked into the wind’s dead breath, its yellow teeth Back in the conference centre, the tea- fresh crowd were pondering the giant owl that stilled her car on that night when she knew she knew nothing, its voice a savage drone   terrible to recall, a rising drone which turned her body into pixel-smoke swarming upwards and assembled anew (“like I’d been sucked into a white hole’s teeth”) on that craft that swept as quiet as an owl When she arrived home, hours late for tea,   her forehead was marked with a tau cross: T She paused, and the air conditioning’s drone momentarily quickened the cased owl on the wall, living eyes long gone to smoke, and shivered through the symmetrical teeth of God’s lost children (tell us something new!)   who’d come here to share what little they knew I thought of the onset of DMT – that sense of deliverance into the teeth of a buzzing wind or luminous drone, mere seconds after releasing the smoke – and then of that line from Twin Peaks, “the owls   are not what they seem” I dozed, dreamt of owls sane and inviolate in all they knew, and awoke to the guest lecturer: Smoke And Mirrors, Carl Jung And The

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August 2014

Alice Hattrick

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August 2014

Alice Hattrick is a writer and producer based in London. Their book on unexplained illness, intimacy and mother-daughter relationships,...

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July 2014

Alice Hattrick

Kristina Buch

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July 2014

There are many ways to make sense of the world, through language, speech and text, but also the senses and their extensions. In his...

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Issue No. 20

The Refugee

Kristen Gleason

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Issue No. 20

Brian Ed waited outside the ration house. Merlijn took his time coming to the door, and opened it slowly....

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April 2015

Posman

Nick Mulgrew

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April 2015

After a while you memorise the steps. You read the addresses and your calves just know, hey. They just...

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April 2017

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Anna Glendenning

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April 2017

 1. PhD   Blue bedroom, Grandma’s house, Aigburth, Liverpool   I gave birth to one hundred thousand words. Tessellated,...

 

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