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Alice Hattrick is a writer and producer based in London. Their book on unexplained illness, intimacy and mother-daughter relationships, titled Ill Feelings, will be published by Fitzcarraldo Editions in 2021.


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Ill Feelings

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Issue No. 19

Alice Hattrick

Feature

Issue No. 19

My mother recently found some loose diary pages I wrote in my first year of boarding school, aged eleven, whilst she was clearing out...

Art

February 2016

'Look at me, I said to the glass in a whisper, a breath.'

Alice Hattrick

Art

February 2016

Listen to her. She is telling you about her adolescence. She is telling you about one particular ‘bender’ that...

Everyone who asks questions, asks in some way about love The question is one half, the answer the other If you separate the Lovers you don’t end up with two distinct people Instead you’re left with two halves of a self, incapable of doing much on their own Imagine a coin with one side, or a story with one side Imagine peeling the skin off your arm Imagine the worst thing that could ever happen to you, happening to you When one Lover’s gone, the other doesn’t know what to do When a Lover was a waitress she dropped all the plates she carried When a Lover was a cashier he could never count out the right change When they worked opposite hours they lost entire days They looked at the moon more than they looked at themselves They’d rifle through medicine cabinets in other people’s houses and read the magazines other people subscribed to They went to the places where others decided to go When they’re apart they forget their names; when they’re together they don’t respond to them   ‘We can tell you your future, if you tell us your dreams,’ is what the Lovers say upon being found They listen to one of your dreams if you buy each a Moscow Mule, and after will tell a part of the coming days It can be insignificant, like a bee ‘Watch for bees,’ a Lover says to you ‘Are you allergic?’ You’re not ‘That’s good’ Their smiles are sleepy; they ruffle each other’s hair   The next Tuesday you step on a bee You see the Lovers later that week at the Mercantile You ask how they’d extracted bees from your dream, in which there weren’t any bees ‘There’s no future in dreams,’ one Lover says, the girl ‘None that would be worth telling, anyway’ You expect the Lovers to evade but they don’t ‘It’s about faces,’ the boy goes on ‘Seeing what’s there The past is in your teeth The future’s in your eyes’   You wonder why they asked about

Contributor

August 2014

Alice Hattrick

Contributor

August 2014

Alice Hattrick is a writer and producer based in London. Their book on unexplained illness, intimacy and mother-daughter relationships,...

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July 2014

Alice Hattrick

Kristina Buch

Art

July 2014

There are many ways to make sense of the world, through language, speech and text, but also the senses and their extensions. In his...

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Issue No. 4

Mysteries of Music

Michael Horovitz

poetry

Issue No. 4

Having absently, that’s to say dozily switched on BBC Radio 3 down in the kitchen as is my frequent...

poetry

January 2012

Picasso (1964)

Campbell McGrath

poetry

January 2012

A canvas comprises a totality of surface just as Spain is composed of constituent parts, Catalunya, Madrid, hills and...

feature

October 2014

Blood Out of a Zombie

Laurence A. Rickels

feature

October 2014

The German filmmaker Ulrike Ottinger has on three different occasions put the camera aside and directed for the theatre, each...

 

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