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Alice Hattrick is a writer and producer based in London. Their book on unexplained illness, intimacy and mother-daughter relationships, titled Ill Feelings, will be published by Fitzcarraldo Editions in 2021.


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Ill Feelings

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Issue No. 19

Alice Hattrick

Feature

Issue No. 19

My mother recently found some loose diary pages I wrote in my first year of boarding school, aged eleven, whilst she was clearing out...

Art

February 2016

'Look at me, I said to the glass in a whisper, a breath.'

Alice Hattrick

Art

February 2016

Listen to her. She is telling you about her adolescence. She is telling you about one particular ‘bender’ that...

When they sprout, their flesh is the colour of bruises The sun beats down and they cook and seep and split open    The heads take shape    Not bruises The ghost of mother’s words, an image of her mouth pressed tight as she knelt to sew up gashed skin, pliers on the soil beside her They are more than that   The sprouts, as they emerge from flat ground, smell of the butcher’s block When the Reaper was small, she squatted before each head to track the turning of skin She traced the violence of blues smudging green Yellows curdling into ochre She watched flesh deepening, like things browning and decaying, into russet and mahogany But it was the opposite of death The bruised skin smoothed, their cheeks plumped The heads bloomed fresh and new At dawn, the Reaper crouched close to watch their pores dew When mother wasn’t looking, she dug her thumbs into their eyes, her tongue into tender flesh   There are no more bruised ones left The newest head sprouted the day mother left, and in the months since, it has mellowed to a birch brown It hasn’t spoken once, mouth slack, eyes leeched Its hair is the shade of cut papaya, but the Reaper can’t bring herself to touch it Mother used to sit in front of each sprout, sinking oil-slick fingers into their hair, kneading their aches, soothing sunburns with dabs of aloe and milk The Reaper begged to help, carefully held lengths of hair as they were braided and piled up snug For the ones who asked, mother sharpened scissors, snipped and trimmed and sometimes sheared bald The weight, they said, reminded them of crowns They spoke like wealthy women with nothing to do The Reaper imagined them stopping by air-conditioned salons, servants waiting at the door, ready to whisk them off to galas and banquets thrown in their honour    That was when the Reaper wasn’t the Reaper yet, when she was too young to understand what it means when a woman’s head sprouts from the ground   *   She wakes with the heft of mother’s pliers in

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August 2014

Alice Hattrick

Contributor

August 2014

Alice Hattrick is a writer and producer based in London. Their book on unexplained illness, intimacy and mother-daughter relationships,...

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July 2014

Alice Hattrick

Kristina Buch

Art

July 2014

There are many ways to make sense of the world, through language, speech and text, but also the senses and their extensions. In his...

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February 2012

A Gift from Bill Gates

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February 2012

My name is Mr Thousands and I’ve worked in all sorts of jobs. Most recently, I’ve been spending my...

poetry

February 2015

In bed with the radio

Péter Závada

TR. Mark Baczoni

poetry

February 2015

IN BED WITH THE RADIO   You’d turned against me. There’s safety in knowing, I thought. Like lying in...

fiction

April 2015

Heavy

Chris Newlove Horton

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April 2015

It is a two lane road somewhere in North America. The car is pulled onto the shoulder with the...

 

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